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Name: Victoria
Birthday: 3/28/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, Sleeping, Thinness, Perfection, Recovery, Purity, Music, Dancing, Friends, Family, Dissociation, Love, Peace, True beauty, Life, Health, Solice.
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..adventually compleate recovery, marriage, children, and happiness
Expertise: Hiding
Occupation: Other
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: ralphispurple@yahoo.com
AIM:  Rippedbare
Member Since:
11/22/2005
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| Not quite sure why I came back here after so long. I guess I feel a comfort here when I begin to fall back into old patterns. I weigh 171 lbs... I haven't been this big since I went from COE to ANA/MIA 10 years ago. I look horrible and I physically feel horrible....And I am slipping....
If my boyfriend found out he would be very upset. I mean I don't hide anything from him... he knows that I ate very little for a few days.... he just assumes its because of me working night shifts and being asleep all day.
I don't tell him the real reason.
He says he loves me the way I am and we joke about how we're both fatties.... And the truth is that I know he is telling the truth, but this has never been about what other people think. I have not regressed too far.. just slowly cutting stuff out: no purging, diet pills or laxitives ....Yet 
I want to be thin, but none of the right ways work............
What would you do??  I love him so much, but I hate being a fat ass equally.
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|   Its been over a year and so much has happened, yet nothing at all.
- I am finished college, graduated with a 90 average.
- I am still single, though the amount of men ive slept with has increased
- I have given up sex... going on 2 months now.
- I still work for an escort service
- Currently job hunting for a reputable career
- Still FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT... 146lbs right now
- Falling back into old patterns again.
- I WANT TO BE THIN AGAIN
- I am tired, lonely and fat... I am pathetic.
I hope you all are doing well... xox
Love Victoria
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| Well it has definitly been a while. So update......I'm on vacation for the summer finally, done my first year...average 88.5%. I kind of seeing someone right now...he likes me the way I am (no wonder he wears glasses).. When school starts in september I get a gym membership so I will be going there quite a bit... over the summer so far I have done alot of swimming which has changed some fat into muscle but I have still way huge and cry at the fact that I am back up to 134lbs.... I was 110lbs in september... Im still purging but my restriction sucks.... I need the motivation to get things moving again.... grrrrr..Not much else is going on right now.
I h ope you are all doing well..... take care and stay strong....XOXOX...Victoria God I wish I had that stomach again... "sigh" I am a fatass.
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| Ok so Im not on here much at all anymore, and I hate it but I guess I have just been kept so busy that... well yeah.
So my eating sucks ass.... mild purging... massive diet pill doses daily. Fun stuff 
School has been going well.... Got my mark back today for a presentation course...96%.. the test I did today was easy, not so sure about the one I did on Wednesday.
Tomorrow I finish my diving....finally.... 9am I am in the ocean...hahahah
Ive started semi dating someone..... nothing serious.. we both like the fact that we have someone to cuddle with, see movies, go out with, etc with a major committment title... plus he just got out of a 4 year reationship and since we have been freinds for the same amount of time... (he is my friends ex)... we already know alot about each other.
I have been tanning so I dont look so freaking white.... still huge though and I funking hate it but I will post a pic from last weekend... note I was really drunk..hahaha
 Well I am off so take care my lovelies.... as well I am on facebook if you want to add me
XOXOXOX....Victoria | | |
| Its been a while... I guess I dont have time for much.. too swamped with everything, i dont even sleep much anymore... my intake has sucked majorly and i am currently high as a kite on diet pills.... its midnight and i have class in 8 hours and even though i am a little tired i know the chances of me getting to sleep anytime soon are slim. i need to get my ass back to the gym... i was thinking of going tomorrow.... as well im off the grease... i really have to get back to restricting and fuck off with this damn binge eating... truely i sicken myself.
i am off to be random... love you all and chat later. XOXOXOX... Victoria | | |
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Hello floor, make me a sandwich.
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